Hello friends, fans, and family!
It is so good to be able to talk to you all again. Oh my, it has been an awesome year for me in acting and in ministry. Wow, I had a lead role and the link I will put below. It is a non-union feature film. We had an awesome cast and crew and it was so much fun. The name of the movie is called To Be You and the Director is: Chad Eddy. It was a lot of work but as the saying goes if you are doing something that you love to do then it is not work. We had very early days and late nights. I met some of the most energetic people in the acting industry. It has been over a year for me being a full time actor. Starting out as an older non-union actor is not easy and is so much work. It can be unbearable without the right support behind you and I am not just talking about the moral support I am also talking about the monetary support.
I drive as an independant contractor for Uber so that I am able to make auditions and for work that I land either as a Background performer and/or as a principle. I must thank Hollywood Original Talent who represent me. They have been working hard for me and yes they get me work. I enjoy working with Hollywood Original Talent (HOT) they are awesome. I am still not where I want to be and I do get discouraged sometimes and yes I do feel like I be driving Uber more than doing acting jobs sometimes. I also can't forget about the haters, and backstabbers, and the nay sayers. They almost wrecked me. I was so low at one point I didn't just considered giving up on acting I also considering giving up all together and that is not a good thing, but God, sent someone to encourage me and to show me that I can and that I should keep going. I don't know, even now, I don't know how to make it in acting. I don't know how to reach the right people to get roles and to be a working actor. I don't know how to get myself to the point of making a living as an actor. I submit myself every day for acting roles and every job that I am a good fit for. Sometimes, more often than not I come up empty handed and that is a hurtful feeling. I put everything into my acting and I know that so when I come up with nothing more often than not it is discouraging.
In may ignorance I may say something that would be considered not smart and yes, maybe I am too stupid to quit, but maybe, I am a fighter and yes, maybe I can see myself there. Maybe I know that if I keep on pressing Also maybe, that maybe is just enough to keep me going, maybe. I am also with Uncut Talent, and Central Casting LA they get me work as well, and I love them for it. Keep me working, please, please, please.
The ever growing question in my heart and gut as my bills grow and my income fade due to hiatus and cancellations. The question is should I act or should I give up? To act or not to act. That is the question that I ask myself, seemly daily, now. How long must I struggle and fight before I am able to see results? I don't mind fighting and I am more than willing to put in the extra hours into my work. But all of that is hard to do when no results is seen and the pressures of the bills that are not being paid grows. How can I keep going as is when my bills are steady and continuous and not shirking but my, my income due to lack of work is shrinking and decreasing? Inevitably self doubt setting in and I struggle to believe in myself. Simple mistakes can and has cost me jobs. Now my friends come at me with language of despair and negativity.
I submit myself for acting jobs, extra work every day seeking and searching for someone to see my potential even as a recurring actor. Maybe I don't know something that I am doing wrong? Maybe I am messing up at points that I should not be. Maybe it is not even me? Whatever it is I must make it and I can't allow myself to give up. It is hard to encourage myself, especially when everyone is saying that I am too old and that I am too poor and that I am not hungry enough and saying that I will never be good enough. It is one thing to stand with a group of people who you know that is on your side but it is quite another to stand alone and/or stand with other people but not knowing if they are on your side. For me I know that I don't know anything about acting outside of school and from what people have told me and from what I have seen for myself. I don't know how to get from the level that I am at to get to a level where I am making a living at being an actor and becoming one of the best actors in the industry. When I achieve this it will be a testimony to tell and it will motivate others.
So, here is my take on acting as an actor, as a person of color (a black man) and as a Pastor. If you think that being an actor and being in this acting industry is an easy road then either you are blessed or you are delusional. If you think that it is easy you are wrong and if it is easy for you then you are blessed and you need to realize that. They are many actors that are out there struggling and crying every night because they are giving it everything that they have and some of them have been doing this full throttle for many years and still nothing. So, if you have any degree of success don't, do not marginalize yourself. Keep going and keep pressing on. Some actors are working but there income is coming from other areas such as bartending, waitressing, drivery driving and/or uber. So, yes, you know how hard this industry of acting is to get into and to a level where you are working enough to make a living at acting, doing acting only as your source of income, or at least making more money as an actor then an uber driver. As a person of color (a black man) they are not a lot of roles out there for me, and as I get older even less, so, I am so happy to see that more roles popping up for us. I don't care where you are from if you are a successful person of color in acting then, thank you so much for your hard work and for opening the doors for people like me. You're awesome. Now as a Pastor, here is where it gets tricky because I have to consider more than the norm. So, in that they are certain roles that I cannot take but also in that, that doesn't mean that I would be any less effective in the role that I do audion for just because i am a Pastor, besides I can put more money into the Church, so, I am happy about that and yes I am happy to give to the Church. Sometimes, I do feel like I am eliminated from a role just because I am a Pastor. However, that can both be good and bad depending on the situation. So, across the board I like acting and I think that if someone enjoys it and are willing to work at it then it is possible to become a working actor where your income is of acting and such, and not uber.
Lord knows I have cried many tears and that I have thought about this issue for some time. As I said before I am not there yet and yes I am giving 100 percent. I would be the first to tell you that I don't know the pathway to acting and I am also the first to tell you that this is not an easy industry for most. However, I will also say, keep going and don't give up, never give up. I started acting many years ago, doing plays in church. For real plays and that continued through elementary, middle and high school. I stopped for a while but then I came back and I started doing plays again and background in Veronica Mars. I attended the Actors Workshop studios and the Rehearsal Room, and City College and later San Diego Christian College. I am still going because I am not there yet but I refuse to give up because I enjoy this and I have put too much work into this. I digress, I want to say that you can do it too but it is going to be a lot of work. The old saying goes is that if I can do it then you can do it too but I am going to add to that after talking with some naysayers and the part that I am adding is, if you are willing to put the work in, then yes you can do it too.
I am going to close with, I am submitting myself every day and you should too. Submit your self for every job that you are a good fit for and that you feel that the job is something that you can and want to do. My friends always tell me to focus on three things at a time and my three things now that I am done with college for now. My three things are acting, fitness, and Pastoring in that and in those is a lot. So, yes I have a full plate right now but that is okay and I am plugging away at it every day and you should too. Thank you for much for reading. Have a wonderful and blessed day. If you want to do this (acting) then know that it can be done. You just got to remember that it is going to take hard work and dedication. Stay Focused, Stay Strong, and Stay Motivated!
As I promised the link to my dramatic reel is below my Actors Access Account Link is here and if you want to book me click Here. Have a great day y'all.
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