A whisper in winter, a faint call in spring, a tear in the summer and a fall... what does this life bring us?! Pain, sorrow and sadness or is there just no hope for me? Nothing matters when I am sick and I can't do anything when I am healthy. Is the prison in my mind so strong and firm that not even God can free me from the pains of this life. Most have already given up on me and I have already been cast aside and cast out of your circles and businesses. A liar and a thief is my title that I hold in the dark and even in the light as I go about my day doing my daily business. Hated and scorned for many reasons too many to count at this point. If I am able to succeed even after all of this then and only then will I be considered something more than a thief and a threat. But what if I am not strong enough to endure? I say this as I feel my physical self drain and the fatigue sets into my muscles and bones like winter and snow on the roof top of a house or building. 
My spirit screams out for help but no answers come my way, I yell out for friends to help me but it is dismissed as white noise. Falling to one knee I began to realize that I am defeated for the first time in my life.
          For the first time in my life I face defeat. I have lost before but I was never defeated until now. If this is it for me what will be left behind in my wake. Who will morn me? I have no estate to give so I won't even have the pretenders that frequent my dreams of sorrow and bliss. My enemies bear down on me and pressure me because they can feel their victory at hand. I have met defeat before, when I was young. It said that it would be back and now that I am old it has returned. It's showing me all of the failures of my life and how I have squandered my money over the years. It argues that I don't deserve another chance and it shows all of my failures as evidence and reason to not be given yet, another chance.  It even points out that no one has come to my aid. It goes on to say that even if someone was to show up that I am too far gone and not worth saving or help. Because, I would just end up back in the same spot a few short years later. It goes on to say that it will help me to fail as it has done so many times in the past. 

It concludes its argument by saying, look at him, he is too old, and he don't have what it takes to endure and over come. Your efforts will be lost and he will succumb to my call and give up the ghost. As it glares at me, it says: Even his self worth and determination is gone. There is nothing left of him but an empty husk, a shell of what was once great. Using greatness for him is an over kill because he has done nothing in his life. The tears in my eyes rolls down my face because there is so much truth in what it is saying. I am old now, I am failing, I am in so much pain, so much pain. I don't want to be a burden to my friends and family as I seek out one more chance. There is no guarantee that I won't fail, again and again. Lastly, it spoke the truth when it said that I lost my self-worth and my self-esteem and I lost my determination. What has become of me? Am I at the pentacle of my life? Is this it? Is this the best that I can do? 
​          Should I give up on life? It is so easy to give up, I mean it's always right there, waiting on me to... Yes, I can also see the victory cheers of my enemies and the boasting of all those who stood against me. I have no family, no wife, no children, nothing to live for, so, should I just give up?! The negative energy is so strong and fluid. My shields are not holding. How did those other guys do it?! They had family, friends, children and family. What happens when you don't have those things. What happens when I am marginalized because of convinces. Should I leave this world behind and go to a cold ground symbolizing a cold world who never cared because it couldn't or wouldn't. Should I be cremated to show how the world ate up my life and burned away all of the good parts. Cremation will also show how I squandered all of my life opportunities, leaving myself in debt and broken in all ways known to man. Should I just die.

          No, as much as it hurts, I shall fight. I am a warrior. I don't care if I am old, I don't care if I failed before I will not give up. No, I can't give up. I know that I don't have no one but I shall fight on. I have me. I have me and God. I have no wife, no kids but I will fight on. I have no money, no opportunities given but I will fight on. I will succeed as long as there is life in my body I will fight on. If I am destroyed in my efforts of fighting for what I believe in then I died fighting. Yes, I will have down days, yes, I will have loses but I will fight on. Do not give up on yourself. I don't care if you are old, young, smart, or challenged. You fight on. Fight for what you believe in. I dare say if it is good and positive never give up. So, go back to school and finish your diploma/degree, learn that new language,  start that new business, push forward forever forward. 

I am going to close with; how, when, why, where, and who are the questions that we ask our heroes and people that we look up to. I may never be good enough for you but I will always give you the best that I can an if that is not good enough. I will know that I left it all on the battle field (of life). Never give up. #nevergiveup, #8010az, #teamfire, #firenation, #acting, #staymotivated, #fitness, #teamfirehawk, #happythanksgiving, #happyholidays, #merrychristmas, #happynewyear, #godlovesyou

Hello friends, fans, and family, 
I hope and pray that you are having a great day, and week, and year. A lot of changes are happening here in IME. I am happy to announce that the IME iRadio Station is back. We will be having giveaways and special promotions and of course great music. If you are an artist and want to get your music on the IME iRadio Station please contact us. We are going ask for a good copy of your music along with any art work that goes with your music that you are submitting. We are also going to need your stage name or the name that you go by, preferably the name that is on your music that you are submitting. All of this is free of charge because we are improving our list and we want to support the indie/local artist. You don't have to be local just be willing to share your music with the world. If you are a podcast promoter we will air your podcast as well and we ask for the same things as a music submission with a brief description of your podcast. Please, in your description and/or your submission have a way that we can contact you back so that if we have any questions about your music/podcast submission. IME are also selling advertising spots which or $5 per 30 sec spot. We have weekly and monthly packages for your convenience. Contact us for more details. We look forward to servicing you all. Welcome to the IME network. 

Hello friends, fans, and family, 
how are you doing? I hope that you are well. Thank you for reading and thank you for being so awesome. I still have not fully decided whether or not to bring the JB&I Show back or not. I may only bring it back through or as a pod cast and it will be available through apple, hip-cast, and other podcast platforms. I always ask for your feed back and I am thankful to get your feed back whether it is good or bad. I will and I do enjoy hearing from you. Thank you for your support and love. You are awesome! Thank you. 
          Now, I got asked some questions and few of those questions are how can I keep going after a pit fall and after a major set back?! Moreover, can they do it, and how can they recover after a pit fall?! I told that person that they can do it too. I also allowed them to know that I still have  along way to go. I said, doing background is not my end goal but I am going to put my all into it because I am doing it. It would not matter if I am cleaning or flipping burgers. I am going to be the best. That is my attitude. If I am climbing up a steep hill or a mountain I am going to take some time to prepare and plan but I am going to do it and accomplish it. Why, you may ask it is because this is my attitude. Yes, it is hard and yes it hurts. But if I give up, if I decide to throw in the towel without give it my all then I will always be saying what if. What if I had gone a little bit farther, what if I was able to hold on a little bit longer. That what if can and will continue through out the remainder of your life and I don't want that. I don't want that for myself or for you.
          I enjoy healthy competition and I try to be the best and pass on the knowledge that I have gathered in my journey so that someone else can learn from my mistakes and my victories. I have a goal and that goal is my objective. I may need to get a job to reach it or I may need to go to school to accomplish it, and/or I may need to workout hard than I ever done in my life to accomplish it. All of these things you need to consider before you start your process and I am not saying that you are going to have an easy road. Hell no, your road is going to be hard, why, you may ask, it is simple, they are going to be pit falls and hard times. Pain is apart of the process even I hope that it was not apart of the process but it is. Yes, it is going to hurt, people so often think that it is going to be an easy road. I'll tell you what makes it easy. Okay, this is important. If you are doing something that you want to do, then it is going to be easier, than doing something that you did not and do not want to do.
          Yes, they are still going to be times when you are going to want to give up even in the things that you want to do. I like fitness but I don't like working out all of the time. They are those days when I am not in BEAST MODE and/or Alpha Mode. However, I remind myself that God is good and that God loves me. He trust me enough to have life in this world so that I maybe able to reach others. If I am able to motivate you in some way and allow you to know how awesome you are then I am doing what I am suppose to do. At that point it is up to you to believe that you are awesome and that you can do that good thing that God has given to you to do.   
          Getting up is going to be hard because you are not going to want to get up for whatever reason. A lot of the time it is because of the pain and other time it is because of family and friends and lastly it is because of the sheer embarrassment of it all.  No one is going to blame you if you don't get up. They are going to be people who love you who don't want to see you in pain and hurting so, for that reason they are not going to want you to get up from that pit fall. They are going to be people who don't like you for whatever reason and they are want you to stay down so that they can say, "I told you so," I told you that he/she is never going to be ... fill in the blank, (That thing). Now, keep in mind if you gave it your all and you not anyone else but if you don't believe that you can get back up and keep going then, then it is over. However, if you can still believe and know that you can do it to spite the pit fall. You just want may want and need a few moments to regroup and give thanks to God, then I dare say that you can still do it. All of these things are going to happen at the same time and it may even seem over whelming but I dare say again, that,  you can do it. Even through all of that, you still can do it. 
          So, in closing I am going to say that no matter what you choose to do, if it is really something that you want to do, you can do it. We live in an age where you can really do awesome things for community and country. We can see all of the awesome things in other people but we don't see our own awesomeness. It pains me when I see this thing, when people are so awesome but they don't believe in themselves and they don't believe me and/or other people who tell them how awesome they really are. They choose to believe all of the bad and negative things that people say but none of the good. It is a choice, some people may choose to tell you that it is not a choice but it really is a choice. Choose to be great in whatever you choose to do that is good. Okay. Thank you for your time and thank you for reading. Stay Motivated, team fire hawk and welcome to the fire nation. #staymotivated, #8010az, #teanfirehawk, #firenation, #fitness, #college, #background, #acting, #music, #isaacm, #cdbaby

Hello friends, fans, and family, 
I have been away for a bit. Getting things together for the San Diego fit expo. I am going to be wearing our Team Fire Hawk T-Shirt. Anyone/Everyone is welcome to get their, I mean your very own Team Fire Hawk T-Shirt by Clicking Here. I thank you for all of your support and love. You are awesome! I am working on my next song in my gospel EP. It should be done this year. It is a lot of work and I hope that you all check it out and let me know if you like it or not and why, either way. 
         I have started my fitness process again. I had to start over due to lack of workouts, haha. Okay, okay and I ate a lot of junk food as well, hehe. Starting all over is not easy and I tend to want to go back on my healthy eating. So, to avoid this I have included a fast food day. Which is really just a fast food meal but I say day because it is a mental thing. I get to eat any junk food dish that I want and that also include deserts, haha. This programs helps me a lot because I earn this meal by having a solid fitness program. 
         I am also considering bringing back the JB&I Show. I have learned from my mistakes in producing and in producing the show. I upload it on Rumble and YouTube as well as Steemit. So, video interaction is very important. So, the JB&I Show needs video likes and video watch time and comments. Basically video interaction for each episode and as a whole. This is needed so that the JB&I Show can move up the ladder in these different platforms. The JB&I Show talks about movies, TV shows, video games, book reviews and more. We cover award shows and talk shows and other reviews.  Let me know if you all are interested in me bring back the JB&I Show? Leave your comments, concerns, and complements. If we get good feed back I will bring the show back. 
          I am also I streamer on Twitch.tv/8010az. As 8010az - Team Fire Hawk - Fire Nation - is a fun community. We promote positivity, motivation, enjoyment and healthy life style. Which is Team Fire Hawk and the Fire Nation. I enjoy streaming and the whole Fire Nation - Team Fire Hawk community. I like the interactions and talking with people and supporting one another. It's awesome! Team Fire Hawk! I decided to include team fire hawk into other areas of my life and as such including them into fitness was natural. I promote healthy living. I share what I do and what my fitness goals are as well as some of my pitfalls and how and when I over came them to a certain degree. 
          The fit-expo is going to be in San Diego this year and I decided to check it out and tell you all about it and video some of it. I may even stream it but I am not sure if I am going to be able to do that as of right now. I know that my phone maybe able to stream for a few hours but that may take away from me recording it. So, if I can use another device to record and/or stream that will allow me to do both. If things change and I am not able to make it to the FitExpo here in San Diego for any reason I will let you all know but as of right now I am going. I will be representing Team Fire Hawk. 

I am going to close with, life is hard. However, they are great moments in life which makes it worth living. We will have to decide as individuals what joy we get out of life. I encourage you to find enjoy in life. Enjoy what is good, positive and true and I dare say, follow God and you can't go wrong. But I digress, your choices are yours to make. I am just trying to you to encourage you to enjoy life and find the enjoyment in life. Community, relationships and joy should be apart of everyone;s life is my opinion. Have a wonderful and blessed day.    
  

Hello friends, fans, and family, 
thank you so much for your support and love. You are awesome! As we flow through this summer and enjoy the AC and waters of the ocean and/or the pool. Take a moment to appreciate it. I know it sounds silly but sometimes we are so busy at whatever, we don't take the time to enjoy the here and now. Unfortunately, this includes when we are supposed to be enjoying ourselves. We are working even though we are supposed to be relaxing and/or recovering. Or even worst we are worried about our work and/or our situation instead of taking the time that we already have set aside to enjoy ourselves and recover.  
          So, take the time and joy your day, moment, and/or year. You have already set aside the time to relax and recover so do so. They are times when you are going to have to take your work home to get it done and work over time and extra time and additional time and so on. So, when you have set the time aside to relax and recover you should do so. I have learned that relaxing and recovering should be apart of your plan anyway.   

          Okay, some up coming events for me is the Fit Expo in San Diego, Ca. I don't get out much because I am always working and/or working on work, haha. Even though the Fit Expo is a type of work thing I intend to still have fun. No, I do not have a booth, yet. I am thinking about getting a booth. A booth is expensive so I want to have an awesome booth complete with 8010az - Fire Nation - Team Fire Hawk stuff and more. I also want to know if y'all would like to see me post a video of me being there? I may go live while I am there but I don't know if I can do it without getting in trouble or if my phone can handle it, haha. If I do go live it is going to be on my Twitch Channel which you can find on the main IME Page Here or on Twitch.tv/8010az. The FitExpo is in San Diego OCTOBER 27-28, 2018  
           I am going to close with, I always want your feed back so that I know that you are getting something out of my videos, writings, and live stream. Even if it is just a getaway thing for you. A place where you can go to relax and enjoy yourself. I have gotten a lot of request for videos so I am doing more videos and posting them on YouTube and on here, the IME blog as well as on Steemit.  I look at the comments and views so if there is no views and no comments and no likes then I am thinking that you are not enjoying my content. You Tube looks at this as well but I do it to see if there is any complements, questions and/or concerns. But when I get nothing it is discouraging, because I don't know if you are enjoying my content or if I am doing well in answering your questions. That is why I am always saying, please, like, follow, and subscribe because this is how I am gauging how I did in my content, through your interactions. Thank you so much for your help and encouragement. You all are awesome and welcome to the Fire Nation - Team Fire Hawk! 

Hello friends, fans, and family, 
there are going to be times when you are not going to want to do anything, especially if it is something that you don't enjoy doing. For and example, working out and changing your fitness level. Yes, it sounds good and a lot of people are going to be like, I am going to do it too. But the reality is, no. No, the are not and I will tell you why. The reason why is because it sounds good when saying it and they may even get a lot of support and encouraging words from friends and the public. But when they are not in the lime light no more and when they are in there bed and it is time to get up to go to the gym and workout there is no one there to say, hey, you got to do this.  If they don't have that drive internally so when the mode or enthusiasm of the idea of working out wears off and there is nothing left but the pain. It is not going to be easy to say, yes, it is cold, and yes I want to sleep but it is time for me to get up and get out. 
So, yes, you can do it and yes, so can all of them who say that they want to do it. However, the reality is that you must do it even when you don't want to do it, understand. Once you are able to do this consistently you will achieve your fitness goals. Also, don't worry about what the next person is or is not doing your focus should be on yourself and your goals. Don't allow your goals be put on the back burner because you are so worried about what someone else is or is not doing. 

I am going to close with: You can do it. Some of my favorite motivational speakers that I like is, CT Fletcher and Gabriel Sey. They have an awesome workout and motivational skills. I also like Macc Truc and a few more fitness professionals. I give you them so that you know that is who I use when I get down if I am not using myself as motivation. Remember that you are awesome and you are awesome just for being you. Thank you for your support and love. I am Isaac (Fire Hawk) Middleton, #actor, #music, #singerandsongwriter, #cdbaby, #model, #8010az, #teamfirehawk, #thefirenation 

Hello friends, fans, and family, 
I hope that you are well. Welcome back fro another segment of the I.M.E. Blog. This week has been crazy for me. I am hoping that I am able to get a handle on things, haha. So, how are you doing? Well, I hope. I hope that you are doing well. Happy 4th of July and enjoy your day, week and year. 
          Ah, today I want to talk about starting over. As the title suggest in life we get to start over from time to time. Now, you need to understand that I am watering things down a bit and marginalizing things as well. Not too often get to start over and not too often that we are able to start over. Sometimes it is best that we are not able to start over. They are many areas that we can't start over and one of many is being born and redoing the the past. I can't go back into my mother's womb and start over as a baby. I cannot go back to my High School Days and redo that either. In some cases it is good that I don't, haha. But they are areas of our lives where we can and in some case must start over. Such as, starting a new career. Technically that is not starting over because it is a new career but starting at the bottom and trying to move up the ladder again. That part is starting over because you are going to have to be at the bottom again and work you way back up to the top again. If you start a new career you would be in essence, starting over. If you break up with your boy friend or girl friend and decide to give it another go you would be starting over. You can even consider starting a new relationship with someone else as starting over because you got to start again with getting to know this person and sharing your feeling with this person, taking a chance of being hurt, again. 
          For me I am stating over because I am starting a new career. Even though I have done it off and on for several years this is my first time really giving it a shot and I am really depending on getting some sort of success. People who start new careers in any field feel this way. I feel like I am starting over because everything is new to me and there is always that fear o what if. That what if fear is so deadly. That what if fear kills more dreams than negative people. I think, what if the people don't like me and my career ends even before I can get started in this field? What if I can't find enough work to sustain me? What if I can't grow and improve? What if my age and my heritage stops me from moving forward and growing my business. What if I don't make enough sales? What if I can't get engagements to my products and videos? What if I can't get the interest of the people to even checkout my products. What if I am drowned in competition and no one even get a chance to even review my work. What if someone is working against me and kills my efforts before I can even get it out to the people for review? 
          So, you see these what ifs can go on and on. You can also see how these what ifs can and do kill people's dreams of; starting a new career, going back to school, finishing school and/or getting in good physical condition. Don't get me wrong you must ask yourself some tough questions in order to prepare you for what may come but if dwelled on too long it will kill your effort and you won't do anything. Weighting out the risk is okay. You might sort out the whole thing and you may come to the conclusion that you can't do it. However, if you never try is that something that will hunt you for the rest of your life. Also, if you are going to try something like finishing school then, really try to finish school don't half do it. I understand that starting over is not easy and the term starting over usually comes after a failure. Let's be honest here, it hurts, and you are feeling low and this may even be your lowest you ever felt. But you have the chance to start over. Yes, it may take time to learn this new quest that you are on and yes it may take a lot of effort on your part to get the minimum amount that others seem to already know. But, that does not mean that you cannot do it. Encourage yourself and do your research. Yes, it is going to take a lot of work on your part but you know that already. 

I am going to close with, no matter what you choose to do. If you take you take the time to prepare and plan. Realizing the work and effort that is going to have to be put into something then I think that you will be successful. Don't give up, never give up. You can do it. Have a wonderful and blessed day. Thank you for your support. 

Hello friends, fans, and family, 
I hope that your day is going well. First I want to start off by saying this has been a crazy two weeks, y'all. My computer failed, also know as crashed and my studio recording devices quit working also known as broke, haha. I have done what I could y'all. I am beyond frustrated. I have not been able to do any gaming and I was getting ready for my big push to become a Twitch.tv affiliate and putting out more YouTube videos as well. All of that is on hold now because all of my devices is not working, out of service, hahaha, it's broke y'all... I know I am venting in my words here but that is okay. Releasing of stress in this form is good. I also workout and jog and do stairs steppers and all of that, haha. I digress, In lue of all of this I decided to do some spring cleaning and get set for when my computer get out of the shop. I will still post some videos from my phone to YouTube but I like adding my graphics and stuff, hehe. 
          I am using my friend's laptop, some of you may not know what a laptop is, haha, but that's okay. I am going to do what I can from this laptop but all of my graphics that I crated and purchased over time was on my computer, ya know, so, back to square one on that. I should have had some backup files... hmmm, note to self, get back up hard drive or backup to cloud, yeah. Okay, my music that I created for my song was on my computer and that is now gone so I am going to have to recreate that as well. I am not sure if I am going to be able to recreate it as it was. 
          Wow, I got a lot of work to do once I get my computer back, huh. In addition to that I am the owner of the Sea Wheat Store, I am promoting that as well, not to mention the OBO Blog and YouTube channel.  I maybe doing too much?! Huh. Well, the way that I have it set up it should not be too much on me... most of which has been pushed back to next year and just once a month when i am able to do it. I may, if I am able higher some writers like I have done in the past this will decrease the load on me and give other people a chance to showcase there writing talents. What I may also do is higher some virtual assistants to help me out in various areas. So, that is my plan in a nutshell and as always is it all subject to change without notice, on a wim even, haha. 

          But seriously if I am able I will higher some help, I will. I look for help in many different areas, as I mentioned before, writers, virtual assistants and more over time. Thank you for all of your support and love you all are awesome. You are... You are awesome for who you are not just for being an excellent support of me, haha. 
          I am going to close with, things will happen that will knock you off of your feet. However, it is your choice whether you decide to stay on the ground crying or if you are going to get back up and keep trying. People are not going to blame you for wanting to stay on the ground. They might even be a little relieved because they don't have to face you in the proverbial battle.  So, in that I say, fellow Fire Hawks, Team Fire Hawks, On Fire for....
Welcome to the Fire Nation - Team Fire Hawk! Haha, 8010az and peace, much love. Stay Strong, Stay Focused and Stay Motivated

Hello friends, fans, and family, 
I hope that you are having an awesome day. Thank you for your support and thank you for your feed back and love. You are awesome and a motivation to me. Thank you. I am totally honored to have you in my life, and community. I have a lot to learn and I am working on it every day. 

I have been working on my new Christian single which will be apart of my gospel EP which I am expecting to release next year December 2019. I am doing this through CD Baby which is an awesome platform. They are great people, and they give you tools that will aid you every step of the way in your creation processes. I have been with CD Baby for a very long time. So, admittingly so, I have made my fair share of mistakes. Every time I see some of my music I see the mistakes that I made in that processes. Some I was able to fix over time and others are just reminders of my learning of that time period. 
So, I am going to strongly suggest that you take your time and take a break from time to time if nothing else to regroup and refocus. Some of my mistakes was nothing more than fatigue, in short I was tired. If I had take some time to regroup and refocus I would have caught those errors. 

I started an online store and I would like for you to check it out. If you like night lights and watches then this is a great sight for you. We even have clothes and sun glasses. 

In closing, I will always encourage myself and you should always encourage others as well as yourself. Yes, life is hard but if it was easy we would not appreciate it. I will always encourage you, hopefully, either through, my writings, my music, my clothes and my sayings. I want you to be encouraged. You must also encourage yourself. I believe in you. You must believe in yourself.  Thank you again for being so awesome. Checkout the Sea Wheat Store and my CD Baby Page. I am hopeful that you will like it enough to make some purchases. Not just to help me but to also encourage yourself. 

 ​ Hello friends, fans, and family, 
thank you so much for your support and love. You are so awesome. Thank you for being a part of the Fire Nation - Team Fire Hawk! You are excellent. Okay, I pose the question which platform is good for streaming? When I say that I mean like full time YouTuber and/or D-Tuber / Streamer. I am a part time streamer on Twitch as 8010az - Da Fire Hawk. I have seen Twitch streamer's go from part time to full time like, Bass Corn Bread he is an excellent streamer on Twitch. I am learning how to balance my online career with my real life. This is very important to me. I felt bad about all of the breaks that I had to take from my stream and video creation because of my real life. I think that I am finally getting to a point in all of this where I feel it is finally going good. Honestly, I have a lot to learn, still but I am on the right path, finally.
          I lost some subscribers from YouTube and D-Tube because I was trying too hard. I was putting out three videos a week and blogging and artwork and streaming on Twitch. I changed my Twitch streaming schedule to Sundays just one day a week. My live viewers are finally starting to grow. You can find me on the CGN network and on Twitch and on the main page of the IME Website. I was also trying to write on Vocal which is a great platform, but I was doing way too much so I was burnt out and failing in my everyday life. To gain a better understanding of what I am talking about checkout this video. (Click Here)  
     In addition to streaming for hours upon hours a day I was also creating videos for two different platforms and blogging. Please, don't misunderstand, I enjoy doing what I do and the best part of it all is being able to make my own schedule. I got a little depressed because some of my friends died over the last ten months and I was having some personal problems. To add to this, I take my work very seriously and when I started losing followers and subscribers on Face Book, YouTube and D-Tube, I was downtrodden. I always want my friends, fans, and family to enjoy my work. I want all of my supporters to get something out of my work every time. However, I do understand that this is not always going to happen, but this is what I want. Yes, it's a recipe for disaster, haha. So, I am managing my time better and I am prioritizing. My friend Savo shared something about doing what you really want to do in life. If you really want to do something you can, and you should, and people do make that time to do that something.  
         I needed to regroup and refocus and decide what I really want to do. It is not about the money but at the same time the money is needed to live and pay bills. Ah, that is the truth, money is needed. I believe that when people say that it is not about the money I think that they are saying it is not only about the money. I believe that they enjoy doing what they are doing because they love doing it. So, in that you have to understand that, there will be times when that streamer may not see the money coming in. They may have to get another job, and readjust there hours so that they can continue streaming, and making videos, and doing artwork, and continue to blog. Twitch, YouTube and D-Tube are great platforms to do all of this. 
          Anyone who worked with me on any of my projects know how hard I work and know how hard it is just to put out one video much less do that and stream and blog and do acting and do artwork. It can be overwhelming if it is not kept into prospective. So, what I needed to do is decide on my priorities, and the question came up about which platform should I focus on, YouTube or D-Tube? Growing on YouTube can be very difficult, and D-Tube is new. So, which platform should I focus on? Also will my content be relevant and accepted on D-Tube. I placed some test videos on D-Tube and I continued with some videos on YouTube and my channel started growing but no interaction thus no likes and no comments on either platforms. D-Tube pays for comments and likes or up votes. So, I feel bad asking for likes and comments on D-Tube because it seemed like all I wanted was the money. However, I really want to hear from my viewers. I want to know what they have to say about my topic and my video(s). 
          I've decided to put out one video per platform per month. I changed this from once a week because I was burning myself out again. It does hurt when I put so much effort into my videos/Streams and no viewers, no views and no comments. The best way to not burn myself out is to do it in a progression that will allow me the time to do great work and recover. Even though I am doing two videos per month it is still pressing on me to do something once a week because I felt like I should be doing more. So, yes, you guest it I decided to do both. 
          Please, keep in mind that I am doing two videos, streaming, blogging, artwork, and all of the background work as well as editing. So, I am doing a lot, but I still felt like I should do more. My goal was to see if I could do this full time and I would base this off of interactions, comments, stream and video engagements and so on. This was my plan but I got nothing; no interactions, no stream engagements, and no video views/watch time and no comments. So, yeah, this was discouraging to me. As a result of that I started watching other YouTubers and D-Tubers and Twitch Streamers to see what they are doing and try to see what is working for them.  On D-Tube the most popular videos where mostly about crypto-currency, followed closely by cooking videos and travel videos. D-Tube Is still young so I expect them to grow and in time maybe my potential viewers/subscribers will find my content of some interest. Yes, there is still hope. Next, I did my YouTube assessment, and sadly the same results. So, now I am thinking that it is me. I am not putting out valued content. I watch other YouTubers and I saw and heard about how they grew their channels. At the time I thought that it was a good idea. So, I implemented some of there strategies and I started losing even more subscribers. I was not growing like I had invisioned, haha.
          This obviously bothered me, after some time, I watched my own videos and try to figure out what I was doing wrong. I also, asked a friend of mine to help me and he pointed out so many things that I could not fix everything in one setting. I decided that I would make a game plan and sick to it. I would fix these issues as I could and I would improve over time. I announced on D-Tube and YouTube that I would only be doing videos once a month. I lost even more subscribers on both platforms, haha. I pondered my decision and I decided to stick to it because I still needed to work, and this is what would be best for me. I would not burn myself out and this would give me more time to put together quality videos which over time I can improve on. 
          So, I decided to do both platforms once a month this way I am not over doing it and I am giving myself enough time. I am doing my blog once a week and I am doing artwork once a week. I am also doing my music once every three months and streaming once a week. I decided to try this plan for 90 days to see if this plan works for me. 
          I am an actor, so, I am doing that as well, ah, when I get work. Because this is out of my control I am adjusting all of the others tasking to this one. Acting or being a professional actor is my main goal. I enjoy doing it all and even though I am not getting any money for any of it right now I am going to continue to do it. That is why people like me say that we are not doing it for the money. I am not getting no money for any of these projects or at least not enough to be of any real value in paying bills.
          Which leads me to my next business venture and this is all about the money, haha. I started an online store and the name of it is: The Sea Wheat Store. The Sea Wheat Store is small and we only have a few items right now but I am hoping that as we gain more sales we will grow as I learn and understand what you the customer want. I am focusing on giving the best quality products and a great online shopping experience. So, please, checkout the Sea Wheat Store and let me know what you think about it. 

          I am going to close with, people are going to always say what you cannot do. However, the honest truth is that it is up to you. If you decide to do acting, do your research, take classes and get it done. If you want to go back to school then same thing, do your research, find courses that you want to do and get it done. No matter how long it takes. I have had people to discourage me and every time I allow them to do that I feel bad and they are bragging to their friends of how they stop me from doing whatever. My realization comes in after the opportunity has passed and the only person hurting and mad is me. So, I say again, don't allow people to steal your dream. Learn, study, do your research and get it done. Thank you for being a part of the Fire Nation - Team Fire Hawk! Have a wonderful and blessed day and welcome to the Fire Nation... 

          Okay, here is a little bit about me: I am Isaac M, 8010az, a streamer on twitch, and a YouTuber as well as a D-Tuber on Steemit. I am a singer and song writer, a blogger and an artist. I am also an actor and online marketer. I engage you so that you can form a commitment to yourself, here is how: every journey begins with one step and having the courage to try to be successful takes a lot of courage and determination. As well as endurance, drive and commitment.
          However, it is not and never have been impossible. Yes, you may get to a point where certain things may change but that does not mean that you cannot achieve your goals. You have to be determined and you have to be willing to fight for it. You can achieve your goals even if it is to graduate at a late age in life, or starting that business that you always wanted, or even to lose weight, no matter how heavy you are, you still can do it. 
          I am here to encourage you. My goal is to encourage you. Through my designs and admitting you into the Fire Nation, a community of people who dare to dream and seek greatness in life - Team Fire Hawk, a group of people who supports and encourages one another. Our goals are aligned, no, it does not have to be the same goals. Just try to be the best version of yourself that you can be. Use these items (videos, Streams, blogs, & products) to encourage yourself, to motivate yourself, to challenge yourself to be successful. I believe that you can do it, you must believe in yourself. If I can encourage you through my items, even if it is just a little bit to help you achieve your goals, then all of this is worth it and this is what I am here for. #staymotivated, #teamfirehawk, #8010az, #thefirenation, #isaacm, #dafirehawk, #digdeep, #seawheat, #seawheatstore