that is a question that I consider every year, every month, every day, every hour, every moment, every minute. After so many failures and I am really good at failing I consider giving up, many times over. Some how I manage to keep going and I am able to push forward but then I ask myself another question; when should I give up?! When is it just stupid for me to even try to keep doing, and to try to keep going? Is it stupid of me to keep trying even though I am now way older than when I started and I am not closer than I was twenty years ago? Should I give up now that bills are way pass due and I am on the verge of being kicked out of my place and all that I care for is in danger of being lost. Should I give up now that the battle of my success in this field has brought me to my knees and my enemies mouths water because they can since my energy fading and my shields running out? Should I give up now that the banks have turned me away and the licenses and permit costs are more than I can afford? Should I give up now that my once firm stance is now weak and feeble? Should I give up now that my peers have mocked me and my recent failures solidify their stance on why I should just give up and go away? Should I give up now that all of my short comings and failures are being pointed out and shown as reasons way I should just give up?
I ask my self these questions every day and I must say I still don't have an answer for most of them and the answers for the others changes every day. But I choose to keep going and I choose to keep trying, because, well, honestly, I don't know why. Maybe, I am just too stupid to quit or maybe I am just too stubborn. Whatever it is I will continue to press forward and move on and if my enemies are able to fest upon my flesh (metaphorically) it will be a meal that they have earned because I will not just give up. I will continue on and I will and I shall fight on until victory is won. I give credit and glory to God even though I am far from victory as of now but I believe that I will be successful.
I hope that I have encouraged you. May the peace of God and the grace of God be with you always. Thank you for your support and thank you for reading my weekly blog.